all i can say to you i that i understand exactly how your feeling and feelings like yours dont go away easy. it sounds obvious and annoyingly cliche but it does just take time, takes time to get used to the way things are and it will take time to slowly stop feeling like this. but talking from experience these horrible sad feelings your having will go away, it doesnt feel like it but they will. a wise person once told me emotions drop and fly high and iif they do drop like they are now they will fly high again. it often takes a lot longer than you thought it would but dont give up. dont give up on thinking you can be happy because you will be happy again. thats a fact, just try to pick out the good things in life and focus on them. focusing on the bad things will only make you feel like rubbish. sitting and doing nothing or listening to sad music will make it worse. do things you love doing and bit by bit you will start to feel better. it will be ok
why cant you talk to them? well thats good that is a start, have you been seeing much of your close friends? that can often help seeing friends and spending time with people who care and love you it can make you feel better? try talking to someone else if you cant talk to who you feel you need to, talking is the only way we really let out our emotions
is there anyone you can talk to about it? or if you can turn the emotions your feeling into something constructive? like poems or songs or art or even like start writing a book or something?
maybe its time you confronted it instead of ignoring the emotions.
you should take time like this to let the emotions out, it is good you are writing how you feel down on this blog because it stops it from getting bunged up in your head. i think if what you have been ignoring has been being ignored for a while that you should confront the feelings. it will feel rubbish at the time but if you confront it now it wont get worse or more intense.
you have nothing to be sorry for, talk, spill it all, its what the blogs forr
im so lonely now she has gone.